I’m so tired. Sejak Adam balik dari KB ni, dia selalu bangun malam. Pukul 2am dia bangun, nanti dekat2 pukul 6am dia tidur balik. Or, dia bangun pukul 4am lebih and then tak tido langsung dah sampai Nazri pergi kerja. Bangun pagi2 buta tu siap ajak main dgn dia, main khemah la..main selimut laa…ajak tgk TV laa… I’m not the type yang jenis bangun tido pastu boleh pejam mata and tido
semula. Masa siang pun takleh nak tido langsung sebab I’m not the type
yang tido siang, susah nyer.

So, I think it’s just normal if I’m a bit grumpy nowadays due to lack of sleep. Semalam lift kat rumah my sis tak berfungsi, after tunggu around 10-15 minit sambil dukung Adam, kitorang blah turun tangga. Tapi pintu lif tu kena kick sebijik, hilang sifat2 keibuan aku sekejap. My maid pun terkejut. Judging from the its condition, I’m sure the lift has been kicked around several times by everyone else, before me.. Puas hati aku.

Nazri minta SLAB PPUM, dah interview 6/2 lepas. Kalau dia dapat, dia kena resign dari Kementerian Kesihatan and pay them sebulan gaji. Hopefully dia dapat, if we both dapat kerja kat UM senang sikit dari segi location tempat kerja. Dia minta radiology - not a very ‘wealthy’ choice to begin with, tapi asalkan dia suka cukuplaa.

After watching Everybody Loves Raymond, we asked each other this question - would you remarry after I died? He said no. Interesting, eh? Kadang-kadang, we talked about stuff…contohnya aku ‘mengingatkan’ dia yang aku ni dah kawan dgn dia sejak susah (sekarang takdelah senang tapi takdela sesusah masa jadi student dulu,hehehe), and if one day ditakdirkan kita jadi senang, janganlah lupa masa susah kita dulu, sebab aku dah baca banyak kes perempuan2 desperate ambik suami orang…lagi-lagi kalau diorang ingat orang kerja doktor ni kaya (what a busted myth!) . Kekadang tu, ada kes family lelaki sendiri tu jahat robohkan rumahtangga anak menantu dia, pergi introduce perempuan lain kat lelaki tu. Kalaulah aku jadi isteri lelaki tu, aku flying kick family lelaki tu. (Fuh emotional kejap, ni lah akibatnya baca banyak sangat kisah DCCK kat Mingguan Malaysia hari Ahad tu)

Well, I said to him, If he ever cheats on me, I think my first reaction is I will cry, and cry, and cry… And then, I will make him cry. Hehehe. Dia gelak aje. But I know he’s not the gatal type, it’s just that you can never trust anyone 100%. Uban dia pun makin banyak tuh, hehehe!!!

Nazri and I went back Tampin last week. His family inc the uncles/aunties/cousins took their grandma to the kampung, so her friends and the villagers can see her after she got the stroke. Kesian dia, tengok aje apa yang orang lain makan sebab dia tak dapat kunyah, muka tension aje sebab kena telan food dia yang dalam bentuk cecair tu. I asked whether she wanted some chicken soup, and she actually nodded (she used to hate chicken soup). I guess she got fed-up with her canned-food, tapi tak leh nak swallow anything but liquid. Pity her, she’s such a friendly and great woman. And an excellent cook.

Went for a brunch - more like a HEAVY lunch, really - with Sue. I hope the pending matter will be sorted out ASAP. I know how depressing that problem can be, being a woman..*sigh*

I got fed-up with a person who asked about my thesis progress and made ‘komen-komen yang tidak membina’ about it. The next time when the person asked me the same question, I just shrugged and  said ‘ok’ or just smiled and looked somewhere else. I am so tired of answering to people who made such remarks and couldn’t stop babbling about it. It was just a waste of time and made me feel so tensed, when I’m actually working round the clock to finish it! I don’t need the additional stress - I’ve enough stress going on in my life, heck I even got the terrible, terrible baby blues when Adam came out!!!

Another thing that ticks me off is when people starts asking you questions and then challenge your answers just to piss you off. This happens especially with law-related questions. Look, we lawyers/students/whoever did not ‘invent’ the law. Yes, we study the law and sometimes, we also disagree with the law. We would be happy to answer any question that you have. But, you ask us a question and we answer it, why do you have to pick a fight with us over it?  It’s as if it was me who wrote the law myself. Maybe that person did not mean it in that way, but his/her intonation just pissed me off. I felt so tired. When I answered "I don’t know" just to avoid the confrontation, that person would say "what? how come you don’t know? you’re a lawyer!" Yeah I know I’m a lawyer, and yes I do know the answer to that question, I just don’t want to answer it, duh! That’s MY right.

Oh yeah, Nazri bought me a laptop as my birthday gift. Now I can go to the library and do my work there, instead of trying to type at home and having Adam ‘enticing’ me to pick him up all the time...

A ‘distant relative’ is getting engaged, soon. I love to help in weddings and such, but I just don’t want to get blamed for anything, again! Miscommunication seems like a simple matter, but it can hurt you very deep inside when you got blamed for something which was not your fault. I was the person who was very concerned about the stuff, yet instead of being grateful to me,I got the blame because of someone else’s fault. Being sarcastic to me wasn’t helping either, you @#$%^&**&%!!!  I didn’t mind my time, money and energy, but when someone blamed you like that…THAT’S IT. DO IT YOURSELF! If it’s within my own nucleus family,I can still take it, b’coz at least I can ask anything directly in case of any problem, and I can rectify any mistake or just scold my sisters with no heart feeling involved, hahaha.

Hate to blog here when I have to watch out for any undesireable people reading my blog. Maybe I should create a’secret blog’ like some people, sshhhh…